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Some public entries every now and then. 8D but yeeeah.

Only if I met you from somewhere before and actually know you, I will add you. Sryy.

If you want to make an anonoymous confession, post here.

Omfggg. I really want this D: Its so beautiful..shit man, I'm really loving the gothic prints baby/aatp has been coming out with ^_^ and here I thought everything on baby was just sweet! I'm gonna try to reserve it...but Idon't know what color...red..or black? Not loving the ivory much, plus I have a phobia that wearing white/cream color = big stain on my dress D:
i really want Vampire Requiem, I really do..and I always keep an eye out for it.. But I keep seeing it being sold for $400..the original price is $290. I hate people who take advantage x_X $300 i can understand...but $400? Not including tax... Way too much for a dress. Since I can just reserve the dress through baby's website, I think its better that way. Getting the original price, not a $100 more than the original. >.>

To top it off, KANON WORE IT :DDDDD

Oh Facebook....
Jeff's Status - Give me a Reason why I should trust the Interweb (or something lol)








lol at the end

For the record, I've never been with Jesse. He is one of the people who cut me out of his life... because I didn't want to date him, pretty much. I didn't even know he liked me, and I had just started dating James. and not him..so he got pissed.

This is just a dream Chirstmas list..mostly the Baby, the Stars Shine bright stuff. lol Its probably the ONLY brand I really like..their Alice and the Pirates section anyway. I just can't stand Angelic Pretty...so ugly. I do a great job on my own looking like I'm twelve, no need to make me look eight :/ And Mana's brand shit is just too expensive


"Vampire Requiem" - Alice and the Pirates (BtssB)


"Y-CLOWN Vest" - Alice and the Pirates (BtssB)


Princess-Grape printed cut and sewn - Alice and the Pirates (BtssB) of course the one I want is sold out..


Escaflowne Figure by Yamato...it ACTUALLY transforms



Android 18 - Dragonball Z


Taiga Aisaka - Toradora! Miss Contest by WAVE (Released 12/09)


Voltaire - Maiden Voyage Poster


BioShock 2 for 360....yeah it doesn't come out til February, I know. :/


Random Things I want, not limited to whats depicted:


Anime Posters/Wallscrolls (Escaflowne in image)


Lolita Accessories such as Wrist cuffs, cameos, headdresses...Doesn't have to be brand name. (Above: made by Gloomth on etsy)


Ummm..yeah I don't really want too much, that all I can think of...though it will cost TOO much to get what I want T_T Vampire Requiem...I want that the most. Time to stand on street corners :/

What I wrote of my short story for Creative Writing a while back was read today. I was worried people would be annoyed by the main character (depressed, constantly bitching lol) but surprisingly enough, hardly anyone had a bad thing to say about my story..in fact, a lot of people loved it. "She is eager to be loved, she wants love she's been denied of it her whole life"..that will stick with me, I'm so glad people felt for my character. Things I didn't even take into account, it made my characters real. One girl said she loved the story, she actually stayed awake for mine XD and this one guy, he wrote an amazing story about a man who won't leave his apartment..he complimented me as I packed up. To have him compliment me meant a lot, because hsi short story was my favorite in the class. He said he just closed his eyes and pictured the scenes in his head so clearly, he even thanked me. I thought I'd really hate hearing people rip apart my story...but I really enjoyed hearing people talk about the story and my characters. To even hear them argue over some things, that was very interesting...its soo cool that people argue about something you wrote XD like "No, the character feels this! No, the character feels that!" So awesome hearing everyone's views. Our second assignment is to either make a new short story, or pick up from where we left off. I'm gonna finish what I started :] Maybe even get it published like my teacher said.



ME WEARING JAMES'S COSTUME LOL MY BUTT IS HUUUGE 8D


I'm not gonna see James til Friday maybe Saturday ;____;

Can't wait for Halloween stuffs :D just hope I'll get over this cold by then..


Gonna miss the Halloween Roll at Kimi..it had pumpkin in it! ;__; TIL NEXT YEAR, I HOPE!

So last night I definitely made a good decision that's going to give me more freedom..though my parents are kind of giving me the cold shoulder..not completely, but they still do it.
I was spending time with James on Saturday for his sister's birthday. Its nice coz I got to see Louis too, and I was able to get to know his other brother Nick a little..but anyway I decided I should ask my parents to sleep over. So I call, and I ask...conversation pretty much went like this:

me: So Mom I was wondering if I could sleep over James's house? I'm going to sleep in a different room than his.
Mom: Are his parents okay with this?
Me: Yes
Mom: You don't have a change of clothes..
Me: I can borrow his sister's clothes.
Mom: Can't he just bring you home?
Me: Ehh..I am asking if I can spend the night, I want to.
Mom: I don't think its a good idea.
Me: Mom I'm twenty years old...I should be able to decide this
Mom: If you want to hear what I think, I preferred if you came home. Your father would too.
Me: Yeah...but I'm pretty much an adult now. I think I'm mature enough to make these kinda of decisions
Mom: You want to be an adult, fine. Then make an adult decision.

And with that...just hung up. Didn't say good night or anything...that really pissed me off. I wasn't cold with her or anything, just straight forward. I winded up staying the night at James's in his sister Alyssa's room. It was nice, her bed is comfy @w@ and the cat attacked my feet most of the time. But it was nice, not to sleep alone even if it was the kitty just keeping me company..then waking up, walking into James's room and seeing his cute face.
Anyway back to the point, I'm pretty sure I made the right decision..besides, she gave me a choice even though she disapproved. There are so many things kids my age are doing...

-There are ones that dorm at college pretty much decide what to do
-Some live with their friends and/or SO
-Some are engaged, ready to get married

Pretty much..I mean, can a parent really tell their kid what to do when they are dorming at a college? What makes me any different? I'm the same age as them, I'm just not going to a college out of state or out of the house. I understand, I will not do anything they don't approve of under their roof. Its their house, their rules. But those rules should not carry where ever I go, I should be able to make my own decisions. Soo I am through with that shit. I plan to have more random sleep overs, even with friends, especially for Halloween :] I'm not a kid anymore, I need to make that clear.

Halloween is going to be great this year. Me, Fred, James, maybe Brian and others are going to visit haunted locations on LI. Very Halloweeny :3 which is what I really want to do! ^_^

Interesting religion quiz..lol though some of it is very inaccurate of what I am, as I read through them.. if you want to take it here it is

1. Neo-Pagan (100%)
2. Unitarian Universalism (99%)
3. Liberal Quakers (92%)
4. New Age (89%)
5. Secular Humanism (86%)
6. Mahayana Buddhism (84%)
7. Theravada Buddhism (83%)
8. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (76%)
9. Taoism (75%)
10. Reform Judaism (71%)
11. New Thought (57%)
12. Nontheist (56%)
13. Orthodox Quaker (56%)
14. Sikhism (55%)
15. Baha'i Faith (53%)
16. Scientology (52%)
17. Jainism (51%)
18. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (44%)
19. Orthodox Judaism (37%)
20. Hinduism (37%)
21. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (28%)
22. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (27%)
23. Islam (26%)
24. Seventh Day Adventist (20%)
25. Eastern Orthodox (16%)
26. Roman Catholic (16%)
27. Jehovah's Witness (9%)

I just woke up from this scary dream that there was a zombie apocalypse. It was really fucking scary..T_T A lot happened in that dream, like it happened for years..I just don't remember all of it. One of the creepy things...this one of the survivor's kids kept talking to himself like there was someone else there. I remember climbing up the stairs of someone's house, I think to ward off the ones who were upstairs. And he' looking at me all like "Jen is gonna fall asleep, Jen is very sleepy...that's what he says." and suddenly I felt sleepy. That kid was scary. At first me and James, I think it was James.. made fun of him..but yeah that kid is just weird LOL Anyway I remember hugging my mom close, saying "I don't know if this is a dream or if this is real, but I love you Mom, so much" I said this all crying, and she said she loved me back.. and then boom..a whole mess of em came again. And I had to fight. I shot them with my gun until it was out of ammo, and grabbed some kind of huge guitar and beat them with that. It was then I said, enough and left..(really retarded idea LOL >_> I shouldn't have left when the horde of zombies were still there) I remembered hearing about this eternal spring. If you drink from the eternal spring, you became immune to the virus and the zombie's attacks. Then suddenly it became like a video game o_o I was able to find the spring..but alas I didn't have any bottles. So only I was able to drink the spring. I returned to the spot my mother was, and she wasn't there..I hoped the worse didn't happen. Then all I remember was diving into some ocean..and at the bottom there were 4 bottles, but I could only grab one..it was like Left 4 Dead LOL by the time I tried to reach for the bottle, my alarm went off. And that was that....fucking weird. LOL what's also weird, is that when I drank from the spring it game me an option. "Be immune for 5 years, 11 years, or infinite" I of course picked infinite XD weird huh? I think I had it coz James really wants to see Zombieland and I want the new campaign for L4D :P
Back to sleep..still tired XP

My dog isn't acting like herself...she has her occasional moments when she'd leave her business around the house. After for a long period of time of not doing anything, she started up again. Only, its not in places that she'd normally do that...I went over to play with her, she was very happy you could tell. Then suddenly, right in front of us.. she pees. That is not something she would ever do. There's something wrong with her, I just know it. I know she isn't the perfect dog. I know that, the family knows that more than anyone. But she is MY dog, and I love her so much. She is the sweetest dog once you get to know her..
When I was in elementary school, I didn't have many friends. She was my best friend. I would play with her everyday. I remember the days me and my brother would let her go down the slide...she probably didn't like it so much..what she did love was running up this one ramp-like thing part of the playground. She'd climb up thee, standing at the up, barking like she had such authority. She never barks anymore outisde. I remember she would bark over the smallest things, but not anymore.
I love my dog, I really hope she is okay..I really want her to be okay..

Centaur:
[ ] You are rather wild, and let your instincts run you.
[ ] You get drunk a lot.
[ ] Bravery and boldness is second nature to you.
[ ] You have a deep love for astronomy and the universe.
[ ] You like to read your daily horoscope.
[ ] You have a high level of pride in yourself.
[ ] In the woods is the best place for you to be.
[x] You are spiritual.
[ ] The horse is one of your favorite animal.
[ ] You are possessive and territorial.
Total: 1

Elf:

[ ] Your ears are slightly pointed at the tips.
[ ] You are very intelligent.
[x] Your five senses are extremely keen.
[ ] Your weight is quite a bit lighter than the average person at your particular height.)
[ ] You always wear elegant clothes and speak as politely as possible.
[x] You are most at peace when you are gazing at something beautiful, like nature.
[x] You look very young for your age.
[x] You rarely get sick.
[ ] You are a very hard worker.
[ ] Above all other superpowers, you would love to read minds or see the future.
Total: 4

Fairy:
[x] You are happy a lot of the time.
[x] The best superpower to you would be to fly.
[x] You are very shy.
[ ] You love the forest and plant life in general.
[x] You are always willing to help others, even if you might not be the best to offer aid.
[x] You are young and short.
[ ] Dancing is one of your favorite pastimes.
[ ] If someone ticks you off, you are very clever with getting them back.
[ ] Your clothing isn't always presentable, but you are comfortable with what you wear. (I've arrived at the inevitable age of heels.)
[ ] Circles are a wonderful symbol of unity to you.
Total: 5

Gnome/Dwarf:
[ ] You are excellent with crafts and handiwork.
[x] In social situations, you tend to be a little awkward.
[x] You are short for your age.
[ ] You are an isolationist.
[ ] You love to play practical jokes on people.
[ ] You are extremely fascinated with jewelry.
[ ] You look older than your age.
[ ] You love the woods and the mountains.
[x] You are well off, or come from a family that is well off.
[ ] You have a short temper.
Total: 3

Harpy/Siren:
[ ] You are best at talking bad about people behind their backs and not to their face.
[ ] When you are annoyed, you will go to a great extent to torment whoever did so to you.
[ ] You often take things that aren't yours.
[ ] You are easily angered.
[x] Death fascinates you.
[x] You are female, or a feminine-looking man.
[ ] You associate yourself with the wind element.
[ ] You can switch quickly between your light and dark side.
[ ] You love to trick others.
[ ] You have a ravenous appetite.
Total: 2

Mermaid:
[ ] You love the beach more so because of the water than the shore itself.
[ ] Fish are some of the most beautiful creatures to you.
[ ] The ultimate superpower to you would be to breathe underwater.
[ ] You enjoy looking at ships, but not riding them, as well as you like ships for traveling, not hunting in the sea.
[ ] You are good at swimming.
[x] You like to collect shells.
[ ] You use sea items as jewelry or decoration.
[x] You enjoy learning about the ocean and the life inside it.
[ ] You are extremely against ocean pollution, and someday, perhaps, you will work to stop that.
[ ] Legs on land are not as important as a fin in the sea.
Total: 2

Vampire:
[x] You're a night person.
[ ] You have a fascination with blood.
[ ] You are pale.
[ ] You wish you had a bat as a pet.
[x] You are not religious at all.
[ ] Tight spaces are not scary or uncomfortable for you.
[x] The sun's glare annoys you all too often.
[x] You hate food with lots of garlic in it.
[x] To you, a kiss on the neck is more romantic than a kiss on the cheek or lips.
[x] You don't like sharp objects near you.
Total: 6

Werewolf:
[x] The full moon is the most beautiful scene to you.
[ ] You have a lot of body hair.
[ ] The ability to shapeshift is the best superpower to you.
[ ] You prefer gold over silver items.
[ ] You lack self control.
[x] You find it easier to have sympathy for animals than for humans.
[x] You have a deep respect for wolves and wild dogs.
[x] You like to be alone.
[x] You have a terrible secret and you only tell people you trust 100% about it.
[ ] You'd rather be outdoors than indoors.
Total: 5

Wizard/Witch:
[ ] You love chemistry.
[x] You are intuitive and good at analyzing people, to the point that people seriously or jokingly say you're psychic.
[x] The most amazing supernatural power to you is controlling the elements.
[ ] You are a nature lover.
[x] You have a strong sense of responsibility.
[x] You spent a lot of time alone.
[x] You usually hang around with a certain animal all the time when you feel lonely.
[x] You are spiritual, but not necessarily religious.
[ ] Cooking is one of your favorite things to do.
[ ] You enjoy learning about Wicca and the occult.
Total: 6

Zombie:
[ ] You are pale.
[ ] You are hungry a lot.
[x] Many activities you do every day make you feel mindless, or like a drone.
[x] Most of the time you or a part of you is cold.
[x] You love to eat meat.
[ ] You would resort to cannibalism if that was the only source of food.
[ ] You make grunts and moans a lot.
[x] You enjoy learning about psychology because you study the brain.
[ ] You usually walk slow.
[ ] You are not afraid of seeing a lot of blood or getting a lot of blood on yourself.
Total: 4

is it so weird to be so happy, you find yourself crying? Once hysterical, and another just crying? I feel like crying now. I look at photos of James and I, think of all thats happened since we started dating, and I'm so happy I just cry. Probably the whole..being a moonchild thing. Or maybe I'm so used to crying when it came to love, I have to cry over something...haha
Everything is so perfect, I don't want us to change. I'm so afraid of time changing things, or maybe he'll meet someone better...I don't know what I do that makes him see what he sees in me. I know I'm not ugly..but I'm not beautiful either. I know I have good qualities but enough for someone to stay with me..?I just feel scared sometimes, and I worry about things that don't make sense sometimes. I'm used of things always fucking up in some way. There was always someone else..but this isn't the case, not one bit and I am so happy. That face, that sweet, loving smile could keep me going all day. God, I love him so much. I must sound like such a dreamer, but I really believe he is the one for me.

Now I need to sleep..probably gonna cry myself to sleep..lol

Its funny how you RSVP for a party 2 months before...then the week of the party, you say you can't go anymore because of something you've been 'planning for months'. I reeally don't understand people. But whatever, I just find it amusing.

I'm never gonna finish my long post from Otakon..so here is some interesting stuff I learned about Kanon Wakeshima when I got to meet her:
-While she enjoys looking at Lolita magazines, she doesn't like wearing Lolita fashion (a big LOL for me considering many lolitas like her just because of her clothes)
-Her favorite anime/manga is Nana
-Her influence is a French band I can't remember
-She is the perfect definition on moe~ :3 she is shy and adorable
Along with a signed copy of Kanon's CD, we got a shit load of free Vampire Knight stuff. I always wear the bracelet, even though I've only read 12 chapters of that manga..lol

TLDR of whats going on in my life:
-I'm having a chocolate party at my house this saturday. I thought I was gonna have a lot of people over, but so many either marked their invite as 'maybe' or are bailing. So if anyone wants to come over, feel free its at 4pm.
-My kitten and I have been watching DBZ together, its only been like..two weeks or so and we're up to episode 45 (keep in mind we have work and other things to do). All the while I've been reading Dragonball on my own :3
-My cousin Corey has been staying over my house for the passed few weeks
-James and I took him to Chinatown where I proceeded to spoil the shit out of him XD
-I finally have new furniture and my bed now upgraded to a full. The 'headboard' of the bed is a shelf where I keep my anime figures and plushies. And I have a beautiful sakura comforter :3
-I love and crave sushi 24/7

Well now back to work...ugh :/

edit: WTF some old guy at work is like "Did you see your boyfriend last night?" I replied with a yes, he then said "I could tell I see you yawning"....wtf.

Japanese. I love sushi soo much (especially when it has eel and avacodo wrapped in rice with salmon on top @w@ omgggg)
I'm going to make cute heart shaped rice balls for James ^-^ and OCTOPUS WEINERS :DDD I wanna learn how to make sushi too.

Yeah talk about weeaboo, but its always been my dream to make a cute Bento lunch for my boyfriend, just like a girl does for her boyfriend in manga XDD

I'm also seriously considering opening up my own anime/Japanese stuff store... D: will it stay in business who knows...

I'm gonna make my Otakon post soon, I've just been tired whenever I try to type more of it.

Dear Jen,

You have been selected as a POTENTIAL WINNER for the exclusive Otakon Tea Party with Kanon Wakeshima ON Friday, JULY 17TH!




...I couldn't breathe when I found out. Oh my god...


I MIGHT GET TO HAVE TEA WITH KANON WAKESHIMA




-humps momo_hane for sending her the contest- @w@

I was never a big fan of Michael Jackson I liked a few of his songs and that was all. But in all honesty..watching the specials on his life and what has happened had me close to tears. Maybe I'm just too emotional and sensitive about other people...

This is my favorite song by Michael Jackson (and the Jackson Five), I'm posting it here as a tribute.
RIP
Michael Jackson

OKLAHOMA CITY – A man in Oklahoma City said he was attacked for his bologna and cheese sandwich. Police say 24-year-old Roger Hamilton told them he was sitting on a bus station bench Wednesday, about to put mayonnaise on his sandwich, when another man began staring at him.

Hamilton told police that the man then punched him in the mouth and grabbed his sandwich and left.

Police said Hamilton has a swollen lip and his face was covered in blood. The police report listed the value of the sandwich at 76 cents.

Police have not found the attacker.

sauce - http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090618/ap_on_fe_st/odd_bologna_robbery


ahhh I'm gonna be twenty on Monday ;_; James should be here any moment, he baked a cake for meee :3

Remember that Taiga swimsuit picture I posted? Its a magazine mail in order exclusive only, and guess who has it pre-ordered? :]
For the longest time, I have loved anime figures. The beautiful detail in the folds of clothing, the skin tones, the hair, the eyes...I love everything about them. Its as if the figure popped out of my TV and is now in my hands. I'd always shy away from the high quality ones for their price, and stick to buying a million small ones. While they are nice and adorable, I want to have more high quality figures. I'm getting a new bed set that will have shelves ^0^ I want to fill them with anime figures!
I decided to make a Wish List of the figures I want under the cut~

( Wishlist )

Thats all for now. MY ROOM WILL LOOK LIKE THIS just not crazy white and there will be no zoom in on my boobs..


Good Smile Company ♥

Its funny though when I look in the mirror, I feel like I look like Eileen from SH 4 o_o lol even though my hair is longer and darker..maybe I'm just crazy.

soo. strawberry festival on saturday (not sure where on the island..) and Japan Day in Central Park on Sunday, all with James :3 if my sources are correct, Japan Day is free. Check it out! :]

( some survey )

I got two codes for Dreamwidth, a new journal site that's still in beta. Does anyone want one, and will actually use it?

You must get me these, though

JK JK LOL

I made my icon, here's the full pic:

Not so bad for someone who hasn't used photoshop in a while eh? x3